Tuesday, August 03, 2004

A Foreigner in your own Country

I'm an alien I'm a legal alien, I'm an Englishman in New York, I'm an alien I'm a legal alien, I'm an Englishman in New York...
Sting

One of the main reasons why I leave (I have so many...) it's the feeling of being an Alien in my own Planet. I spoke a bit (I'll say more about that in the future) about Spaniards. In fact I made my own definition about them, but I'm sure I miss some more verbs. I should and will say that we are unpunctual, not really reliable, incompetents (that's something I'll explain in the future), lazy, arrogant, and even dangerous to ourselves sometimes (you'll have to read Colin's Blog to know more about that), and I could continue If my knowledge of English verbs was enough. I don't want to say we're the most horrible people in the entire human kind, of course other countries are mostly the same but, at least, those are more concentrated in some social nucleos (precisely the most powerfull and richest), but I won't speak about social classes and the human beings, that belong to philosophy.

But we, Spaniards, have something special that makes us special compared to other countries. We truly believe our behaviour is the right one, we understand each others behaviours so we don't give a shit when somebody is lying or misbehaving upon us because we'll do the same. I believe that's our most remarkable characteristic. As I said in latest posts "We know the rules".

I have really good reasons to move to another country and, in fact, England is just one of the countries I thought about, but the easiest to be moved in. Some personal reasons, some professional, some psicological, and so on. But the last two years in Spanish history made my decision stronger. For those who read the news (and not only the local ones) you should know we had the "Prestige" catastrofe, the terrorist attack on 11-M, the Iraquian conflict, and our last elections. I was horrified to see how malleable is the human kind.

I guess every country is the same shit, but speaking about Spain I have to explain. In all those problems nobody gave a bloody shit about what was going on. Everybody said something different the day before the event happened but, the next day, after speaking with somebody, or just hearing the news (controlled by political parties) changed completely their minds about what was really happening. I will just give some examples about any of the events:

1.- The Prestige: The ship was broken. Sailing the sea going nowhere. What to do with it? It's full of petrol. I heard everybody saing "just take it away from here", they really said that I promise. So the government said "take it away from the coast" and everybody agreed. I promise I'm not inventing anything, the TV, the radio, the people on the street they all agreed it was the right thing to do. The ship collapsed and the oil slick was just started. Some days of suspense, some days of hard work. And, suddenly, as we heard the radio again, the opposite partie, the TV, the newspaper (all media controlled by the opposite partie) said the governemt taked the wrong deccision. Some lies from the governemt made it worst and then began the demonstrations (controlled by the opposite parties), and everybody changed their minds. I've been in the beaches and the islands affected by the fuel trying to do my best, but I couldn't stand hearing the same political shit again and again while we should be cleaning the fuel from them. There's something very interesting about this event. The citizens of the most affected towns voted the actual governemt on local elections, the answer of the question "Why?" is really simple, the government paid them good salaries while they couldn't work on the sea, fishing.

After some months everybody in this country forgot anything about what happened, now it was just another old news.

2.- Iraquian conflict, terrorist attack in Madrid and elections: The same shit. Everybody in this country was perfectly quiet about Irak, Sadam Hussein and Al-Quaeda before the 11 of March. They were going to vote the same government we had for last 8 years, the polls were clear (even after the Prestige event) giving a clear victory to the PP (the conservative party). But then 200 people died because of an Al-Quaeda attack in Madrid. It was a repetition of the Prestige thing. We were 3 days before general elections. And, as it happened before, some days after the horrifying attack everything started again. Demonstrations (controlled again by the opposition parties). That wasn't that bad, at least the reason was good. But just before the election, in the reflexion day (as we call here the day before elections in wich any kind of political show is strictly forbidden) new demonstrations, and not nice and quiet ones, started in any city and town of Spain (I guess, and I mean guess, they were controlled by the opposition parties). So, as it happened before, the Spaniards changed their minds and voted in a different direction. As a result of this Spain was divided and we had a new socialist governemt.

I won't say anything about politics, personally I don't agree with any of the parties we have here. Some are too conservative and the others too "trying to be modern". What I don't agree is the malleable attitude of the Spaniards. So, when they're in a group and the most of them thinks "yes" the rest would say "yes" even if they don't agree with that, but just because they don't want to "quedar mal" (I'll translate this into "lose face", but I'm not sure if it's the right expresion).

I didn't change my mind about what was happening. I just saw it was a horrible catastrophe. All those killings, all those beaches and sea destroyed, everything was just bad news. I was concerned about what was happening, I went to clean the beaches, I went to the demonstrations when they were just to show how angry we were (not controlled by anybody). And, if I would believed in god, I would prayed for all those lives. But I didn't change my mind. So I guess I'm a monster here, an Alien in a strange country were I was born and in wich I'm not sure to believe in.

I apologize to be so horrible this time, but I felt quite angry today, it migth say it's the horrible weather we're having this summer what makes me so angry (global warming???).

I hope next time I'd be more funny.

Manoel

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